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[03.19.05 @ 10:20am] |
So honestly, how could you say those things
when you know they don't mean anything
And you know very well
that I can't keep my hands to myself,
hands to myself
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't (but I can't) stop this
anymore than you can
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[03.15.05 @ 09:35pm] |
You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind.
Well, here it goes: I hate you for what you've done to me.
that fits so much i feel like it was written for me.
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[03.12.05 @ 06:35pm] |
amnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find
forgetting is hard
when you're the only one
that made things easy
you're the only one that eases me
i remember the times
when my shoulder held your head
and i would wonder
how did they find
such a perfect fit
oh how i wondered
(i never wanted to take you home)
amnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find
so call me now
you know that you want to
i need to hear your voice
to talk me back into existence
That song seems to sum up some of it...And at the same time its like the exact opposite. Ugh its all too confusing.
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[03.09.05 @ 07:23pm] |
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Hmm ya so he either makes me miserable or ecstatic. not good but great at the same time. I want to be in one of my great moods right now, I am addicted to those I really am. I just REALLY want to be in just a great great great mood right now. I was yesterday and the day before. But now things all seem to be goin to shit. Again. Damnit.
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[03.04.05 @ 09:22pm] |
Yes it is the invasion of pink
Pink cheers me up alot I dont know why it just does. So ya I decided to do some pink redecorating here. I was thinkin it would be cool if I gave my room some pink cause well it would make me happy.
So yes I am going junior prom dress shopping this weekend which will be really fun. I have some stuff in mind. I saw this really cute turquoise dress at Macy's today but i dont think its very prom-ish.
I like this one but NOT white, cause well that is boring. I want a kinda bright color but not like neon green or anything cause I dont feel like looking like a highlighter.
( Some Dig Cam Boredom and Such )
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[02.19.05 @ 07:45pm] |
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ugh my weekend has SUCKED so far. I seriusly have nothing to do everyone is busy with something or other and I'must sitting here fixin all the stuff on my computer. FUN FUN. And ya I dont know its just not that great. Maybe I will call my friend...
Anyways I got the notebook and I havent watched it yet so maybe I will do that?
I am in complete love with that movie it is truly awesome haha if worst come to worst I can always start dig cameraing everything in site. Yes I know thats not a word.
Ciao all
I hope it rains some more. thatd be cool.
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[02.17.05 @ 03:44pm] |
I LOVE sex and the city. haha that show is so awesome its like my gulty pleasure on TBS. well along with Friends of course. I miss The Assistant thought that was hilarious
Anyways I love Allison cause Giovanni now has some brand spankin new dice for his mirror. (Ps giovanni is my car dont get too confused).ANd yes I am now the proud owner of a Legolas Ducttape wallet. Very cool.
Oh ya my friend is acting like a complete bitch. not cool.
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[02.13.05 @ 01:05pm] |
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Ya i love thursday their songs are so awesome. but um well lets see wats goin on with that situation? I hate its like everything is turning completely upside down and its so annoying. GAWD what do u want from me? its been freakin more than half a year! ure just acting so ncie one day and the next its like oh ya u dont remember all the things u said to me. And i want to forget all about you and I want to forget everything you said. Remember all those stupid promises? And i beleived u like an idiot would, promising me you would never be the one to say that. But you were and sometimes I hate you for it. I hate that I can forgive u in an instant and that I cant hate you for more than 5 minutes. At least not really.
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[02.02.05 @ 07:01pm] |
I am in the process of changin my layout but i cant figure out what to do i definetly dont like all the pinkness of this one
any suggestions?
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[01.22.05 @ 10:59pm] |
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the passenger by iggy pop |
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I have a crush. yay! finally its been too long. Like I have a serious one. its pretty darn awesome. I met him at a party last year, hes tall. haha yes big difference from well..nevermind. But ya i dunno hes my type and stuff. and i woulda seen him today but ya know i didnt cause the party was too far. he offered to take me but i woulda felt hella bad having him drive me around and back and stuff cause its far. im stupid i proba shoulda gone. w.e i think i like him
why does he have to live kinda far? i have no luck i tell u. but still just havin a crush is nice hes cute too. u know wats wierd hehas the exact same bday as my ex. strange shit i tell u.
 Happines is a rainbow of sharpies.....
so are we playing for keeps.
these days begin and they don't end for weeks.
leave me left out of anything to do with you.
excuse me while I fall apart.
don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car.
do you have to make this so hard?
you're so good at pretending everything is alright.
you're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.
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[01.16.05 @ 12:40am] |
Party was pretty good. my friend got hellla wasted though. wierd since she drank like pretty much the same amount i did, i think that i can hold my alcohol well. again very strange cause im kinda little lol
anyways ttyl i gotta cause i jus do
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[01.13.05 @ 04:47pm] |
Good job you fooled me again, how do you manage it everytime. So swift and beleiveable, its hard to doubt. And everytime I promise myself ill never make the same mistake again. Its already been made so many times maybe I just dont remember what it is in the first place.
( Once something dies you cant make it live )
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[01.11.05 @ 06:30pm] |
Hmmm interesting
Damnit its like everytime im ONE HUNDRED PERCENT SURE OF SOMETHING it all goes to shit
w.e dussle is quite determined to stand in the way lol
I love my best friend. alot. It makes up for all the other problems
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[01.03.05 @ 06:22pm] |
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The lyrics are too familiar |
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All we ever wanted was
Love and love and happy afternoons
Watching TV from your room
While you're laying in my arms
And I know it's not fair to me
To see this love walk right by me everyday
Will we ever meet the right way
Tonight I will sit next to you
To see if you act like we're through
To make you laugh is all I want
I'll hold you while tears fill our eyes
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[01.03.05 @ 06:12pm] |
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"Painted on my heart" by The Cult |
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This Year isnt so great. Its like everything has completely changed and everyone. I mean the whole group is completely like wierd. I dont feel that my friends are really my best friends the way they were before. We are all drifting off into a thousand different directions and its hard. Im not saying Im not either I know I have. I know Im not the same person anymore, its wierd I guess it just changed me thats all. Its just kinda hard to be with them and not be able to talk about things because im afraid they will completely judge me. W.E Its been a long time and I dont really care anymore. Damn I cant even lie to myself anymore....
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It's about time that I came clean with you
I'm no longer fine, I'm no longer running smooth
I though that I found myself under something new
Just one more line I repeat over and over again
'Till I'm blue in the face with a choking regret
Because I talk in circles 'round you on my bed
Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night
It's about time that you got sick of me
No longer fun, and so far from interesting
I thought that I found me a cure for feeling old
Just one more line to keep me sleeping loudly and cold
In disgraced with a shameful regret
As I talk in tongues to myself in my bed
Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside
When you left that night
And all that followed fell like mercury to hell
Somehow we lost our heads for the last time
And all that followed fell like mercury to hell
Somehow we lost our heads for the last time
And I don't dream since I quit sleeping
And I haven't slept since I met you
And you can't breathe without coughing at daytime
And neither can I
So what do you say?
Your coffin, or mine?
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[12.28.04 @ 12:35pm] |
I am proceeding to color my hair what will happen no one knows....
I want it to be a lighter brown but I hope the red from the last dye doesnt take over and completely sabotage my hair ....
w.e i get to go snowboardin soon.
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[12.11.04 @ 10:08pm] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I feel quite shitty at the moment and u?
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[12.07.04 @ 08:02pm] |
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"sympathy for the martyr" by straylight run |
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He's in the back of your mind
all of the time forge
love leave.forget.
And when I sit alone
I think of what you said
better off just friends
I'm better off just dead
And the hardest thing I do
is wake up without you
when everything falls apart
the emptiness leaves a mark
( YUK )
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